slouch

i'm fucking grumpy. today the cabaret people were little bitches to me after sophie hit me in the head while "dancing". instead of telling them theyre little bitches i was really mean when i danced, in that i was an asshole, as usual. i'm fucking great because most people are boring on stage and look bored plus i can do the mambo. this show is bullshit and i dont think a single company has done it like ever, actually word backstage is karen the devil woman actually wrote that witty dialogue herself! the music is really bad and the all the group numbers involve us walking out onto the stage in "clumps", standing around (the lighting is always blue to evoke tristesse), looking sad, and pretending to sing. really, only jamie danner who is my hero sings. he also has been wearing fucking stylish outfits lately and i'm in awe of how tight his pants are and how he puts them on the in morning. i really want to become an asshole all the time cause apparently this social intelligent kind person thing has not payed off, or at least has not merited mispelled greek terms. bitch i dont need you, i am greek, justice and peace come naturaly.